superheroes

The hardest thing about blogging is you have to be a superhero all the time. Really. At least I make myself believe I do. You can't post things about all the sad feelings you feel. You are meant to blog because you are meant to save the world and you want to touch someone's heart. Because no one wants to read (or write) a post that doesn't make you feel uplifted towards the end of it. I blog because when I write things down they suddenly become real thoughts instead of just pieces of thoughts running around in my scattered brain.

There is this glow about most blogposts saying "I believe in this" "I'm standing up for this" "I'm happy now because" "I decided this" " look how cute these clothes are" "read this and it'll make you feel better about your failed relationship" "you can change your life if" "8 signs that your best friend" so basically, we're superheroes. Doing good unto our fellow men. But what about all those times when we don't have anything happy to write about? Why do I need to feel like I'm supposed to not blog unless I'm happy-blogging? What do I do with all of those thoughts from the days that I'm bored and the nights that I'm really lonely? When I'm sad or angry or stressed or scared or confused? Because there's no shame in feeling those things. So why am I afraid to publish a post that shows I'm weak? 

I don't know if you guys have noticed but my pictures
i add to posts have nothing to do with the actual
post. but i called this one superheroes, so here's
mar. cuz she's a superhero. if you want to follow my
tumblr, you can find it here 

I've come to the decision that I don't want to be a super hero anymore. This doesn't mean I'm going to start writing down all my heartache, but it means I'm going to try to let go of feeling guilty for not feeling like a million bucks all the time. Cuz you know what? I'm human. I make mistakes. I cry. I overthink. I hate boys. I get nostalgic. And I'm gonna write about it. Because it fills me with a different kind of light. I'm going to write because when I do, my mind opens up and my heart calms down and I have to start believing everything I say to all of you. It's okay to be lonely. It's okay to be sad. It's okay to be anxious. Who would we be without our weaknesses? I am a firm believer in opposition, and as I've said in previous posts, without downs there is no such thing as up. I cannot grow without first being buried-- being small.

Don't worry, I'll still be filling my blog with as much inspiration for others as I hold within myself (which honestly I don't know how much that is. I'm kind of boring) but I'm also not going to be afraid to write about things that are hard and aren't that happy. Hope you'll stick with me. Thanks for being here. On this page. You are the reason I write.

with love, 

autumn nicole

hope ave part ii

i'm late to the party posting (like always) but here's another shoot i did for hope avenue featuring the blonde beauty chandler roberson from days of chandler. she was an absolute doll to work with and we're both totally in love with the new american fork store.

you can check out chandler's blog here for her own review and styling tips for these two cute looks. and as always, check my photography tab for the full shoot! 

engagement session: aubri and hunter

this cute couple had their engagement session not too long ago and i can't wait to share them with you all! i really love couple shoots. it's so much fun to capture their personalities in a photo and creative memories that will be with them forever. so happy to work with you guys! as always, check out my photography tab for the full shoot!

labels i'm loving: hope ave

so i got the awesome opportunity to be one of a few bloggers able to take a first look at the new hope avenue location in american fork, and let me tell you... i'm in love. i'm not just saying that because i'm writing a blogpost about it. i've been given a lot of free clothes and very seldom do i love them enough to feel inspired to write about them. hope ave felt like the epitome of me from the second i walked in. a little bit of hippie and a little bit of preppy and a little bit of casual. i've never been able to pin my own style, but i don't think i've ever  brought so many things into a dressing room at once as i did when i went to hope ave the first time (and second time. and probably soon to be a third time)

their style is a little bit free people and a little bit brandy melville. aka my two favorite places on earth. they have awesome brands like promesa and ginger g, which means supersoft fabric (my weakness), and there were also lots of striped tees (my other weakness) and cute cardigans (okay, one more weakness, needless to say i was a happy camper.) the store was decorated like a dream. casual hippie vibes and just the right size for the amount of product. i loved the color schemes they had and the wide variety of styles- literally something for everyone. plus they're affordable, but still amazing quality, which is so hard to find. 

the girls working there were so adorable and stylish and friendly. they learned my name right away and were so attentive and helpful, but not pushy like a lot of salespeople tend to be (trust me i know, i've been one before.) 

i'll shut up now, and let these looks do the talking. you can check out my photography tab for the full shoots. hope you fall in love like I did!

bridal session: mary and joseph

my first bridal session, and again so excited about how they turned out! i'm obsessed with mary's ethereal, delicate, woodsy look. and with their flowers. so pretty. check out my photography tab for the full shoot!